In about one week's time i'll be heading out on the road from San Antonio for about two months. That is a long time, my chops will improve greatly, i will lose weight from malnutrition, i will make better friends with those in the van and around the U.S., and I will go broke. I will pee in bottles, i will masturbate in public restrooms that i find clean, I will not see a familiar face sans band, I will probably watch magnolia and blade runner about 20 times.

It's more than exciting, it's the life anyone should live for their passion.

Of course doing so makes me wonder about other aspects of my life...finances,education, women....let's go through each for a second.

finances..i have no savings. i have no money whatsoever. i was barely able to scrape together enough to eat for the next two months and even then it might not be enough. my car almost got repossessed, i owe the state of Texas for four speeding tickets, i've sold pretty much everything i have of wordly value besides what i use at home to keep myself entertained and not going out....But with finances it's usually correctable....so naturally i'm not worried about my debt.

education? you can always go to school but i really don't want to be taking basics still when i'm 24...but really...to travel the world and do what i'm best at in front of complete strangers for money...really just seems a lot more important when you're idealistic about the arts, like myself.

women...haven't tried to date a girl in about a year, and it was like 6 months before her...i really just...don't care...although it's starting to feel like time to pursue someone. Should i though? It's so much trouble, i won't be really..STATIONARY for the next two months,and who even knows during the next year. Not to mention i think i've been striving to make myself more unattractive by telling whatever jokes i want, acting like a nerd, and just wearing whatever is folded on my floor..i'd really have to try i guess.

see ya in a various amount of days america.